Miss Vicious speaks out

 Responses I have not and will not give her directly are in red.  Anything, everything, and nothing is used to feed her vicious paranoia and she's vindictive enough as it is.

my 8 year old is upset at the fact foxes are going to be ripped apart so yes she knows more than you paula who puts pictures up of foxes in her garden seriously dont put down my 8 year old or i suggest you dont visit pauls mum again smile emoticon yes its a threat!!!!!!! think paul living there is going to be quite awkward for you as he is reading your comments

you have now lost all contact. with MY Children (strange, I thought Paul was their father and that they are his as much as yours) you mind as jaylee and i are thick (something I haven't said, written or thought). I would rather be thick that sad, lonely pay for my friends, bitter!! and you and paula with allllll the money in the world  (really?  Not according to our bank accounts) still look very cheap and desperate!!. (No one else seems to think so) P.S tell paul i never said a bad word on my wall about her even after she was rude!!. (I should do this because?) I see how classy you men/friend buying woman are!!! I have saved allll the messages and yes jean your son was here a read everything!!! and now has read all this too. Your functioning alcoholics who cant hold a decent relationship between you both. Jaylee was int the car when she had that view which may i say come from your son!!!!. Remember what you told me about Paula and how skippy kangerroo is married!!!!. (ancient history) I may be thick but im happy (really?) so are my children something you bitter, nasty, cheap woman will never have!!! please share away!!! (I prefer not to feed her fantasies)  P.S I DELETED AND BLOCKED YOU JEAN as you were only on my fb for the pictures of the children!! yet you didnt seem interested yet could like the poster i put up where i said id be the asehole. (Oh dear! ) I f i was as low as you too and as unclassy (She has class????) i would put it alllll over facebook. (go for it!  Won't change my life)   Going to the kinky clubs was not a choice for you two but the only way any of you would get attention.(ROFL!) Paula is a very very sad lady who wanted your passport and personal details whilst you were under having your brain operation!!!!!. (Ummm; that was for backlash to transfer their account : something I wanted to do anyway.  Paula wasn't involved, not that facts matter and, I was in hospital but not on the operating table at the time) Remember who was there (her, amongst many others) Jean who tried picking you up when you were down!!!! (nope; no memory of her being one of them: ) who told you to go back to work!! (Well, even if I did remember, getting back to work a stupid idea at the time) who allowed you to come for christmas!!!!!!! (Ri-iiiight.  That was my Christmas present - in 2014.  Glad she was so generous) Your son has been through my facebook i have nothing to hide. (And so?  my son's relationship with me is not under her control.  Being proud of such an outpouring of vitriol is odd to say the least)

P.S there is a difference (between what and what else?) BAD bitch. and SAD PATHETIC bitches think you (cant call you ladies) missed that memo!!! (which one was that?)

share this on your wall from the thich bitch!!! Jaylee told me she thinks you dont like her like a THICK bitch i told her oh grannie loves you lol lol see how clever MY girl is (WTF is she talking about here?)

your soooo desperate for friends you allowed that woman to say that my daughter is thick and you agree "youre right" (entirely untrue don't let facts get in the way of a good story, and I didn't realise my friends needed my permission to speak)

i understand you agreeing about me but your grandadughter and on her page on her wall !!!!!!!!!!  (So she is telling me she IS thick?)

i told paul ages ago paula didnt like me when she met me as you slag me off!!!!! wendy pretty much confirmed that when she said actually your really nice! i said why whats paul mum been saying? well you know (nope.) lol lol your a nasty nasty woman!!!! my jaylee is STRONG ! KNOWS HER MIND!!! (I hope she grows up to know her own mind and not speak through her mother's filter)  got more heart and compassion than you would ever dream of having!!! your lucky very lucky !!!!!! to even have had pleasure of knowing MY daughter JAYLEE ASHBY because we both know she is an ASHBY !!! not a moir!!!! (nope.  She's a Booker, the name on her birth certificate is her father's, same as her brother) never will be!! feel lucky im not at you saying this to you1 AS THIS THICK BITCH KNOWS HOW TO THROW A GOOD PUNCH!!!!!!! (  I didn't actually recognise this as a threat when I first read it: should she choose to assault me, I shall be reporting it to the police and pressing charges) P.S so does jaylee  (my 8yo grandaughter is going to assault me too?) but dont worry i wont let jaylee know what a rotten grandmother she has!!!!!!!! (I should believe that?) as for MY son his work has iomproved since his mum has been home!! ( seems unlikely) oh dont take that as a dig (it isn't one?)  Paul is amazing with the kids just didnt get time because of his mother!!!!!!!!!!!!  (I should apologise for being ill and having a son who cares about me?) who paid for Paul before you gave him the card!!!!!! ME  (how interesting!  so she 'bought' Paul did she?  What with? )  

OH INCASE YOU DENY IT AGAIN LET ME REMIND YOU  (Again?)  

OUCH OUCH your right!!! you rotten rotten rotten human being!!!!!!!! Paul was here when i was messaging Paula he messaged her himself!!!!! Paul can tell you i done nothing wrong Paula just being nasty because of what you say about me!!!!!!!!!!  (Ahhhh; so I tell Paula what to do and say.  IDTS)   I forwarded the message i sent her see she didnt put the whole conversation where i state AGAIN not my daughters politics she just dont like the fact foxes will get ripped apart!!!!!!! she then replied well i suggest you dont listen to a 8 year old. then says i suggest you and your 8 year old get off facebook and enlighten yourselfQ!!!!!!!!  (this will be from the thread I didn't see because she'd blocked me)  

soooo glad Paul was here when i was messaging Paula MAY I ADD THIS WAS MY VIEW ON MY WALL!! IVE NEVER WROTE ABOUT HER BULLSHIT!! EVEN THOUGH I CAN CLEARLY SEE SHE HAS NO CLUE!! THIS STUPID WOMAN WROTE ON MY WALL WORKING TAX CREDIT DOES NOT EXIST!!!! LOL LOL IM THICK  (as she already said: I ught not to disagree with anything she says)  

HELD MY MOUTH WITH YOU FOR A LONG TIME  (sometimes, not always)  BECAUSE OF PAUL NOOOOOOO MORE!!!!!! YOU HAVE RUINED YOUR SON!!!  (maybe he has an opinion on that)   MAYBE IF HE WAS BROUGHT UP BY HIS FATHER HE WOULD BE A HARD WORKER!!!!!!!! YOU MADE HIM FOR YOU!!!!! A PROPER MOTHER IS THERE FOR THEIR KIDS NOT THE OTHER WAY ROUND!!!!!!  (then justice would suggest her son abandons her as soon as he can)   YOUR A POOR EXCUSE OF A MOTHER YOU REALLY ARE! AND YOU JUST SHOWED WHAT IVE BEEN SAYING FOR YEARS ABOUT YOU!!!!!  (showed who?  What?  When?  How??)  WELL REMEBER SAYING I WAS HAPPY AND SAD YOU GUYS SPLIT SAD YOU SPLIT UP AND HAPPY I HAD MY SON BACK!!!! HE IS A FATHER!!!! DID YOU NOT ONCE THINK OF YOUR GRANDCHILDREN YOU SAD SAD ROTTEN HUMAN BEING!!!!!!! YOU MAY HATE ME BUT YOU COULD OF TOLD PAULA SHE WAS OUT OF LINE ABOUT JAYLEE  (If I'd known about it, I might have considered saying something)  BUT NO YOUR SOOO DESPERATE TO KEEP THEM!! WELL YOUR WELCOME TO THEM AS ME AND MY KIDS ARE GONE!! MY KIDS WILL GROW UP AND WORK HARD LIKE I HAVE!!! MY SON WONT USE WOMAN (MARK) FOR MONEY!!!!  (Mark is a woman???)  MY DAUGHTER WONT DSEPEND OR HAVE TO PAY FOR A MAN!!!!!!!!!  (well, earlier, she said she kept him 'before I did')   OH AND SID CAME IN TO CLARINS SAID HE DOESNT LIKE YOUR FIREINDS OR MARK HE DONT TRUST THEM !!! FUNNY HOW HE LIKE THE COMMENT ABOUT ME PAULA WROTE YOUR ALL 2 FACED! WITH NO BALLS ANY OF YOU SOMETHING MY DAUGHTER HAS!!!!!!!   (Balls to all that then)  

remember the name JAYLEE!!!!!!!!!!! STRONG CLEVER BRAVE CAN HOLD A WHOLE ROOM WITH HER HUMOUR . like my jaylee say haters gonna hate!!! you have lost the best thing ever to happen to you!!!! MY kids  (Actually, my son is the best thing ever to happen to me & I didn't lose them, she has made it impossible for me to see them)  
Having asked Paul to tell her I was sorry I'd upset her, 
Stick your sorry where the sun doesn't shine. Let's get one thing straight I am not and never will be part of your family I have my own Alexander and jaylee that's all I have ever needed . Paul will have to go to court if he wants you to see the kids. I will never stop Paul but I will if I find out he takes them to see you.
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even ness said she was relived to be rid of Paul because of you im relived to loose the man i love because of you!!! i could never have a relationship with your son because of you and this was before you were ill!!!!!!!. i very rarely hate people but i actually hate you!! and just to let you know as nasty as you have been i actually liked you!!!!

So overall,  Anyone reading this must hate loathe and despise me.  I won't worry about that.

Grit, Kit, Spit and Q

The title is an example of shorthand for the pissed off and that's who I am today.

My beautiful Blu goes back to the vet tomorrow teatime to check progress since draining 500cc or more fluid from his lungs two weeks ago.  He has Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy.  It is no consolation to know that 1 in 3 Maine Coon have it; it's a genetic disease of the heart muscle. The effects of that are not good at all.  Tomorrow we'll be discussing referral to a cat heart specialist and may get some clue if he is likely to survive for 3 months or 5 years, still less than half the average life-span of a non-HCM Maine Coon.  There IS an outside chance he can live a normal lifespan with constant meds.  He's being such a darling about taking them twice-daily - it helps that they are liquid and not tablets.  Please gods, let me find out tomorrow the meds are working well and if continuing with them, even if it's for the rest of his life, will make that life longer.

I am devastated.  I love him so much and so don't want to lose him.  MD is no help, no FC.  He thinks I should have told Di already, that I was worried enough to take him to the vet and should be giving her constant updates.  For me,  in her position, having said someone could keep the cat I fostered with them, I would be frantic not being able to do anything from a different country and would prefer to be told when it was properly identified and everything possible known.  Still, I must be wrong.

The E seems to be under control for now at least and I loved being able to spend quality time with my sister (though I missed Blu something rotten)  My beloved son is a saint, he was here looking after BLU, medicating him, feeding him up and giving me near-daily reports: all of which were he's OK, eating OK, taking his meds, breathing better and being himself, though quiet.  That's all true but: I still think he's too thin, and too quiet even though he is just a loving and just as addicted to being fussed over.

See you around

Yesterday, my belovéd grandson managed to accidentally knock Mark's glass of wine over his laptop keyboard.  They'd been having a good time playing chess after we'd fetched the children from school and were both involved in some computer game Mark was playing.  Mark told him quite forcibly "get away from me, child" so Alex did.  I told Alex he should apologise to Mark and his wee face was so concerned when he whispered to me "I've forgotten his name" then, reminded, went off to apologise.

Everything went downhill between us from there on, I said I would have to replace it if it had died but that wasn't accepted, later, after he'd sat in the garden for a long time, I asked if he was OK, he said "yes" in one of those voices so I said "then why doesn't it sound like it?".  That got me "No, I'm not OK, I'm just not, now leave me alone" so I did.

Things got a little better later while he tried to get the keyboard off the laptop to check it, without much success; eventually it did fire up but appears to have a sticky key so he couldn't even get past his windows logon as the password gets taken over by the sticky key.  He needs to log in to some jobsite every day or have to visit the gov't A4E type people daily.  OK, so he accepted that he could use my old laptop with the broken casing and  I (had already) accepted he'd be going home today instead of whenever.  So.  I went to bed hoping we and the laptop would be back to normal in the morning, he came up after a while but was in the spare room when I woke up.  Fine.  After he got up, I muttered 'morning' but that was the only word exchanged before he collected and packed his stuff; I asked if I could give him the fare, he said"no, you're all right", which made me feel like a total shit since I know he's flat broke.  Then he gave me a hug and a couple of pats on the back before saying "see you around" and leaving.

Made a right mess of my day that did, not that I'd been full of joy the night before.  I'll cope, just wish it wasn't necessary; maybe I'm overreacting by taking see you around as last words but that's how it feels.  Letting people get close to me seems like a bloody stupid thing to do, it seldom ends well and though I let it happen less often than I used to.  Life really sucks sometimes.